Good Bye and God Bless

Well guys it’s been a fun ride.  I feel my need to blog is over because my heart is so focused on Jesus and service for Him, that I don’t have room for anything else.  He is my King, my Comforter and THE Love of my life.  Through prayer and fasting He has showed me that my that my season here is over. I only write this last post to say, if you are reading this, please take the signs of the times seriously.  If you turn toward Him, read His word, He will enter in so quickly and fully, for He doesn’t want any to perish.

His love is beyond measure and His kingdom is a reward for our faith. He’s coming so very very soon!  The time to make your choice is NOW!!! I do not know the hour of the day, but it is so soon I feel urgent to warn at every opportunity.

Be careful, or your hearts will be weighed down with dissipation, drunkenness and the anxieties of life, and that day will close on you unexpectedly like a trap. For it will come upon all those who live on the face of the whole earth. Be always on the watch, and pray that you may be able to escape all that is about to happen, and that you may be able to stand before the Son of Man.” (Luke 21:34-36)

Two men will be in the field; one will be taken and the other left. Two women will be grinding with a hand mill; one will be taken and the other left. Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord will come. But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what time of night the thief was coming, he would have kept watch and would not have let his house be broken into. So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him. (Matthew 24:40-44)

May God Bless You and Praise Jesus my King and Savior.



Lord I’m ready now.
I’m waiting for your triumphant return. (You’re coming so soon).
This world has nothing for me,
I find my peace and joy solely in You. (Only in You).
I want the world to see,
You’re alive and living well in me.
Let me be a part,
of the harvest for the days are few. (You’re coming soon).
So People get ready,
Jesus is coming soon
we’ll be going home.
People get ready, Jesus is coming
to take from the world his own.
People get ready, Jesus is coming.
Soon we’ll be going home.
People get ready, Jesus is coming
soon we’ll be going home. (We’ll be going home).
Verse 2:
Theres a day that comes
when we will be divided right and left.
(For those who know Him and those that do not know).
And those whoknow Him well, will meet Him in the air.
Hallelujah! (God is within us).
And those that do not know, they will hear “Depart I knew you not.”
For my friends you see,
there will be a day when we’ll be counted.
So know Him well, know Him well.
(To take His own, to take His own…).
(We’ll be going home, we’ll be going home…).
For my friends you see,
there will be a day when we’ll be counted.
So know him well, know him well.

 Crystal Lewis – People Get Ready Lyrics

Daniel 12:1-2 At that time shall arise Michael, the great prince who has charge of your people. And there shall be a time of trouble, such as never has been since there was a nation till that time. But at that time your people shall be delivered, everyone whose name shall be found written in the book. And many of those who sleep in the dust of the earth shall awake, some to everlasting life, and some to shame and everlasting contempt.

Acts 3:19-21 Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord, and that he may send the Christ, who has been appointed for you – even Jesus. He must remain in heaven until the time comes for God to restore everything, as he promised long ago through his holy prophets.

Revelation 22:20-21 He who testifies to these things says, “Yes, I am coming soon.” Amen, Come, Lord Jesus. The grace of the Lord Jesus be with God’s people. Amen.

Simple things that will make you feel happy

Simple things that will make you feel happy

From freshly brewed coffee to the smell of a new car, here’s a list of simple things that most people enjoy.  As I read different things, I found I emotionally experienced them from memory. Such a boost to my morning.

  • Sleeping in a freshly made bed
  • Feeling the sun on your face
  • People saying ‘thank you’ or a random act of kindness from a stranger
  • Finding money in unexpected places
  • Having time to yourself
  • Laughing so hard it hurts
  • Snuggling on the sofa with a loved one
  • Freshly made bread
  • Doing something for others
  • The clean feeling after a shower
  • When your favorite song comes on the radio
  • Finding a bargain in the sales
  • Listening to the rainfall or thunderstorms when you’re inside
  • Freshly brewed tea or coffee
  • The thrill of personal achievement
  • Having a long hot bath
  • Seeing a fresh coating of snow
  • Freshly cut grass
  • Chocolate melting in your mouth
  • Doing something active outdoors (e.g. bike ride, run, country walk)
  • Bacon cooking in the morning
  • Talking to or playing with your pet
  • A soothing massage
  • That ‘Friday feeling’
  • A perfectly cooked steak
  • Waking up before the alarm and realizing there’s more time to sleep
  • Doing exercise
  • Rainbows
  • Remembering the name of something or someone you thought you’d forgotten
  • Making a perfectly baked cake or pie
  • Stepping on crunchy autumn leaves
  • Popping bubble wrap
  • Swimming in the sea or a lake
  • New car smell
  • Dancing like no one is watching
  • The smell of new books and magazines
  • Smell of a fine wine
  •  Putting your Out of Office on before going on holiday
  • Putting on a brand new pair of socks
  • Watching your breath float away in cold air
  • Singing in the shower
  • Picking an easy-to-peel orange from the fruit bowl
  • Loosening your jeans after you’ve eaten
  • The ‘pop’ when you open a new jar of jam




I was looking for another picture and came across this … couldn’t help myself.





Miracles Happen

Miracles Happen

All this happiness must have put some good energy out.  I was just praying yesterday again as I have done since July, asking God if He still wanted me to keep going in my business. I won’t go into detail, but as He always does, He confirmed He is in control.  “OK God, I will continue to wait in faith. You will provide for my needs”.  I once again repented for my doubt and let it go. I reminded myself once again that He saw the whole picture, I didn’t.

I have devotional app on my phone that displays daily verses on my sleep screen so I see God’s word first thing when I wake up.

This morning’s was:


I felt even more at peace with just letting it go.  He doesn’t want me to try to figure it out, He wants me to let Him do His will, which is for my Good.

And then as the day progressed, He proceeded to opened the floodgates. I got a referral for another client’s payroll.  I also got an email from an existing client that they need to fill the office manager position and wondered if I would do it full time.  I told them I couldn’t based on my existing client load but I could give them 20 hours per week.  They want me to start the 4th of April. A steady income to carry me through the inconsistencies of my other clients.

I want to say once again, that I am honored that I am able to hear His still small voice.  I am honored that He is working things out even when I can’t hear Him or see anything happening. It has been I think my very faith He was strengthening, when things have appeared hopeless from my point of view.  I also know if things don’t work out for this job, He has a purpose for everything.


Show Me That Smile!

Did you know  that smiling actually makes you, the person smiling, happier regardless of the situation. Normally we are hardwired to smile only during pleasant situations. The brain in turn releases endorphins which lowers stress and improves your overall mood, hence making the situation pleasant.


6 ways to get in the habit of smiling more:

  1. Smile the moment you wake up.
  2. Remind yourself in the morning that you are going to smile more today.
  3. Set reminders to smile. Put a reminder in your phone , a note attached to your visor, written on the mirror, or taped to the fridge.
  4. Create cues to smile.  When your hand hits the door to your house, when you enter work, or when you see a stop sign. Pick your cues and look for opportunities to use them
  5. Think happy thoughts.Practice leaning your thoughts into something positive.  In a frustrating situation look for something good in it.  Every day try to find something positive to contemplate.
  6. Smile at everyone you see today. And tomorrow. And the next day. And every next day after.

















You’re Awesome

You’re Awesome

Did you know you are uniquely awesome? Well, if you don’t, here are just a few reminders.

  1. Your thoughts, at any time, are different than anyone else’s

  2. Your combined experiences in life can never be duplicated exactly the same way

  3. Your body, face, voice, and movements will never be exactly the same anyone else’s

  4. You are the only unique you in a world of 7,000,000,000

  5. Your fingerprints will never match anyone else’s

  6. No two perspectives on any one subject are the same

  7. You do things differently in words, actions, thoughts, quality, and attitude

  8. You are the only one who can make your own choices


The body itself is quite beautiful under the microscope…These are adrenaline crystals.

These are adrenaline crystals.

Science Photo Library / Via Batsford

“[Glands that produce adrenaline] are controlled by the hypothalamus, the part of the brain responsible for instinct and emotion,” writes Salter. We always have small amounts of adrenaline in our blood, but when we’re stressed we get more.

“It widens the airways of the lungs and constricts small blood vessels. This makes the muscles work harder and produces a ‘fight or flight’ response,” he wrote.



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Happy Thoughts

Happy Thoughts

Others have won and you are no exception.

When you are down and feel that you are all alone, most people have successfully gone through that situation. Remember happiness is not the absence of struggles but the ability of dealing with and overcoming them. That person next to you has fought fierce battles and won. You are no exception.

Keep the winning spirit.

Others have won. Keep in mind that no one is stainless. No one is without a dark spot in their life. We all have our dark past. Do not dwell on your mistakes. Do not focus on what went wrong and where the rain began beating you. You can at best learn from the mistakes and move forward. Do not view the floods in your life negatively, at other times they may translate into future growth. Remember there is a difference between giving up and moving on.







White Flag Raised

White Flag Raised

Well, my quest to be med free has come to an end.  The depression has made me sleep so much from Friday through yesterday and I have broke a few dishes among other things out of frustration every time I try to accomplish anything in the past 2 days. Everything is overwhelming me and I feel like no one understands. I took my first dose yesterday and am back on daily regimen.  Oh joy, I am loving the nausea.

It’s just been too much with my environment.  Really bad timing for life to hit me in so many ways.  Anyway, I am absolutely frustrated to be back to where I started and right now I just don’t know how to progress from here.


Why Do Depressed People Lie In Bed? A Surprising Theory

Why Do Depressed People Lie In Bed? A Surprising Theory

If you’ve personally suffered from depression or known someone who has, you know that when people are really depressed, they have a strong urge to stay in bed.

Why do depressed people lie in bed? It isn’t because of great snuggle time under the blankets. It’s because depressed people can’t bring themselves to get out of bed. Almost any activity or task becomes a painful ordeal, even things as simple as taking a shower or getting dressed.

A perfectly able-bodied person can’t bring him or herself to rise out of bed. How does this happen?

The intuitive answer is that a lack of motivation is to blame. Depressed people are directionless because they are under-committed to goals. Without goals to drive future behavior, current behavior becomes frozen for long periods. Beds are the most natural location for a behavioral pause, as the place in the house most associated with inactivity.

The intuitive answer is okay as far as it goes. The problem is that it just doesn’t go very far. It begs the question of how a person loses the desire to pursue goals in the first place. The answer involves a surprising theory that takes us closer to understanding how it is that low moods intensify into more serious episodes of depression.

First, we have to detour to contemporary evolutionary psychology, which tells us that moods have a function: Moods help us pursue goals efficiently. High moods help us to more vigorously pursue rewards. Low moods tell us when our progress towards goals is poor. Often, low moods first arise when we’ve hit an obstacle, or when an important goal is threatened. Our usual first reaction to a low mood is to redouble effort towards the blocked goal. If the goal still proves to be unreachable, the low mood will escalate. At some point, something has to give: Usually the person will give up, or scale back on the goal and/or move on to another activity that has a better pay off. Authors such as Randoph Nesse and Eric Klinger have made a powerful case for the utility of low mood. In a world where time, resources, and effort itself are all precious and finite, having an evolved mechanism to hasten disengagement from a failing goal is very important to survival.

These relationships between moods, goal and effort hold for a variety of species. A bear fishing for salmon without luck in a favorite river bend uses low mood to help it move on to another spot. For better or worse, human self-regulation is more complicated because we can choose either to act or not to act on our mood. I believe that humans are the only species that can decide to ignore low mood and to continue pursuit of an unreachable goal. In a sense, this creates the potential for a stand-off between the person and their ancient mood system. To resolve the standoff, the mood system must do something more drastic: It turns down the volume on goal pursuit, not only on the one goal, but on goal pursuit across the board.  Eventually, when the mood system wins the result is flat-on-your-back depression, with fatigue, torpor, a lack of motivation, the whole nine yards.

So this alternative theory turns the standard explanation on its head. Depressed people don’t end up lying in bed because they are under-committed to goals. They end up lying in bed because they are over committed to goals that are failing badly. The idea that depressed people cannot disengage efforts from failure is a relatively new theory. It has not been much tested in research studies. However, the idea is well worth exploring. It fits well clinically with the kinds of situations that often precipitate serious depression — the battered wife who cannot bring herself to leave her troubled marriage, the seriously injured athlete who cannot bring himself to retire, the laid off employee who cannot bring herself to abandon her chosen career despite a lack of positions in her line of work. Seeing these depressions in terms of unreachable goals may be useful clinically, and may help us better understand how ordinary low moods can escalate into incapacitating bouts of depression.



Don’t know why, just feels the best to look at.








Just Breathe

Just Breathe

So much can change in a few hours.  From the time I began my earlier blog at 2:30 am to about 30 minutes ago the abrupt outbursts from others in the house are pushing me over the edge.  I pressed on with my itinerary… was in the shower at 7 and on my walk with unfortunately dog only at 7:30.  I came back and hung the valance in my office and tried to just ignore the random yelling.  But finally, I just couldn’t take it… “Do you know how much I want to yell at everyone in this house on a daily basis?!!” “Please for the love of God Stop!” I suddenly feel overwhelmed with anxiety.  My heart is racing, my breaths are labored, my senses are overloaded.  I sat outside after taking anxiety med (little extra) and there come the tears… OK time to move on. Here are tips on how to deal with my specific anxiety glitches… focus JenFaFa… I am sticking to my schedule … Just gotta get through this moment….

 How to Slow Down Your Racing Heartbeat When Feeling Anxious


One of the most common and frightening symptoms of anxiety is a racing heartbeat. When I was suffering from frequent panic attacks, my heart would beat so furiously that I worried I was having a heart attack. The following technique can be used to help calm yourself down and return your heartbeat to a more normal pace when feeling anxious.

It all starts with a deep breath…

When you feel overwhelmed with anxiety, take a very deep breath through your mouth and hold it in. While continuing to hold your breath, flex or tense every muscle throughout your body as intensely as you can. Feel every inch of your body tremble from the strain. Continue squeezing your muscles for 5-10 seconds, and then immediately relax every muscle as you slowly exhale through your nose.

As you exhale you will feel an incredible release of tension and stress throughout your body. Your heartbeat will slow to a more natural and relaxed pace as does your breathing, which helps to calm you down.

Breathe normally for the next minute or so and then repeat this exercise. Doing just one or two iterations is often enough to provide tremendous relief.

I’ve used this technique to overcome panic attacks when flying, stuck in traffic, and before public speaking. It helps provide immediate relief and can snap you out of an anxious state of mind. When anxiety arises, give it a try.


Accept that you’re anxious.

Remember that “anxiety is just a feeling, like any other feeling,” said Deibler, also author of the Psych Central blog “Therapy That Works.” By reminding yourself that anxiety is simply an emotional reaction, you can start to accept it, Corboy said.

Acceptance is critical because trying to wrangle or eliminate anxiety often worsens it. It just perpetuates the idea that your anxiety is intolerable, he said.

But accepting your anxiety doesn’t mean liking it or resigning yourself to a miserable existence.

“It just means you would benefit by accepting reality as it is – and in that moment, reality includes anxiety. The bottom line is that the feeling of anxiety is less than ideal, but it is not intolerable.”

Use a calming visualization.

Hyland suggested practicing the following meditation regularly, which will make it easier to access when you’re anxious in the moment.

“Picture yourself on a river bank or outside in a favorite park, field or beach. Watch leaves pass by on the river or clouds pass by in the sky. Assign [your] emotions, thoughts [and] sensations to the clouds and leaves, and just watch them float by.”

This is very different from what people typically do. Typically, we assign emotions, thoughts and physical sensations certain qualities and judgments, such as good or bad, right or wrong, Hyland said. And this often amplifies anxiety. Remember that “it is all just information.”

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That was very helpful.  There go my thoughts on those balloons.  Flying away from me effortlessly.


Look at this guy.  Just chillin.  Ahhh …a smile creeps to my face.

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I can see clearly now the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright)
Bright (bright) sunshiny day
It’s gonna be a bright (bright)
Bright (bright) sunshiny day